Carver time

"(...). drinking's funny. when I look back on it, all of our important decisions have been figured out when we were drinking. Even when we talked about having to cut back on our drinking, we'd be sitting at the kitchen table or out at the picnic table with a six-pack or whiskey. when we made up our minds to move down here and take this job as managers, we sat up a couple of nights drinking while we weighed the pros and the cons.
I pour the last of the Teacher's into our glasses and add cubes and a spill of water.
Holly gets off the sofa and stretches on out across the bed.
she goes, "did you do it to her in this bed?"
I don't have anything to say. I feel all out of words inside. I give her the glass and sit down in the chair. I drink my drink and think it's not ever going to be the same.
"Duane?" she goes.
"Holly?"
my heart has slowed. I wait.
Holly was my own true love. (...)"